I was anxious all night. I had to have a good one today. I got more anxious every minute as today's round got closer, but I like that feeling. It's the feeling you get when you're about to do something important.
This wasn't PGA Tour School. Still, it was very similar because a whole year depended on it. If I didn't qualify, I wouldn't have had a completely solid place to play. The purses for the 10 tournaments are comparatively very large. So it was still a big deal. It certainly didn't feel a lot different than tour school. I was NERVOUS.
I was in a pretty good spot to start today, but I was far from safe. I had to play a very solid round to insure my spot on the tour, and I was feeling the weight of it. A lot was at stake.
I amended my game plan a bit to take out any huge numbers. I don't think I've ever hit so many two irons off the tee. This wasn't a huge loss. The fairways this week were so fast in the afternoon that the deuce went around 270. So I felt like it was a smart revision to the plan, while not sacrificing too many of the birdie opportunities.
Birdie on one helped. Another on two helped a lot. But then I hit a dry patch. I missed some makable birdie putts, and three putted the fifth (once again, the greens were tough). So I was at one under most of the round. With double hanging around every hole, the nerves kept ramping up throughout the day.
Now it gets really hard. I had missed makable birdie putts on 10-13. They all had a chance, but none fell. So I was still on the bubble. On 14, I had 180 and hit 8 iron over the green, leaving a tough chip. I hit 8 iron over 200! I don't have that shot, but the course was getting a bit crispy by that stage. This was the point in the round where I could either bear down, or let the round get away. I chose the former, and got it up and down. Nice.
I hit a great little bump and run wedge from 130 on 16 for a birdie. Next I hit a very nice punch 7 iron in close for another birdie on 17 to sew it up. Until then, I didn't feel comfortable the whole round.
I played it a bit too safe on 18 to make bogey, but it was smart by that point. Only a huge disaster could have "defeated" me, and I didn't want to even bring that into the equation.
So I made it through. How? Here's what I think. I like the feeling of being under pressure, and I think it's important to feel that way. That is why we play, to get the adrenaline pumping and to overcome the jitters. You need to embrace it, realize you've done something good to even be in a position to feel the butterflies, and the execute the shots you've worked so hard to be able to execute. It's an amazing feeling to perform when it counts the most. Look forward to it.
My "go to" shot today was a little punch hook. Find the shot you know you can hit, and hit it. The shots you're not confident in become very hard to pull off in the crunch, so why hit them? Hit what works, whether it's ugly or not.
So, I have a pretty solid place to play this year, and I'm very much looking forward to it. Here's to a great year.
Luke Swilor
And...traffic was a joke tonight. I left San Diego at 3:30, and I was barely out of L.A. at 8:30. I learned the reason road rage can become such a problem. Talk about frustating. Yuck. I stopped at the first hotel I saw after going 5 miles in an hour. The SoCal people can deal with this every day, I'll pass.